Late for me

Trolling through the internet at 10:30 p.m. doesn't do anything for me. I don't find anything more than what I need to know or couldn't wait to find out the next morning. Then I find this post from May and I lose focus on the screen. It is almost like I am reading a horror movie review. I don't even know how I would begin to handle that kind of event/earthquake/WTF in my life. So here is my question that rings fierce now, but will fade to a dull memory by morning, What am I doing here instead at my bed on my knees?